The Heart & Mind Knows...

I've known for a long time how good my intuition was, but it has been even more prevalent as I've grown older. Some things are more obvious and some require more time, so I need to pay close attention. Then, there are times when I will dream about something and it's either symbolic of what's to come or it's a prediction/confirmation of what's currently happening. So, it's like the saying: "You just know things before you know." 

Truth, it's one of those words that can either be beneficial towards a situation or detrimental to one's emotions. Regardless, the truth is necessary. There have been many instances where deep down I already knew the truth, but hearing it spoken out-loud makes it that more solid. Regarding matters of heart, that's when shit gets real... And I've learned that you must find a way to accept what is, whether or not you receive the answers or closure you deserve. You must find that peace within yourself, so that no matter what happens, you can forgive for your sake and move forward. 

I've been very fortunate to have people in my life that were honest and had the heart to tell me the truth and were up-front. I'm grateful for the lessons, experiences and memories that I will hold close to my heart. As I've mentioned in my last post, this year may not have gone how I expected it to, but it has truly brought me a new-found perspective that I can and will continue to get through what life throws at me. There's still SO much to discover and I look forward to what the end of this year has, as well as, what 2021 has instore for me. 

I'm so grateful to God to have hope, strength and resilience to keep going even when it gets tough. This year has been a constant reminder to fully release, trust and allow Him to work. "Let go and LET GOD!" 🙏🏽

I hope everyone stays safe and has a fabulous week!

With love,

Sharon ♥️

     Here are a few encouraging thoughts that I'd like to share from kind souls that speak to my heart:

It Wasn't The Best Year, But At Least I Have Me

This year has been one hell of a roller coaster... I'm not angry, but I can admit that I am frustrated at times. 🤦🏻‍♀️ I'm sure many of us have felt that way when things didn’t go as planned and are now left to pick up the pieces. People and situations not only can disappoint you, but they can leave you, they can lie to you, they can betray you, they can even use you and you still manage to wake up every day hoping and praying that things will get better, in time. I think this year has truly taught me that people are fickle, plans change and life is so fragile. I had so many affirmations in place last year that I really believed would manifest into this year of 2020. I had so much hope for this year, yet instead I was left with the biggest lesson... You must be ready for the unexpected. Although it sucks, I'm holding onto the faith that what's meant to be for me, will always be FOR ME! Everything serves a purpose even when I cannot see it in the 3D, but I can feel it in the 5D (I can't even begin to tell you how loud my dreams and intuition have been this past year...) I'm overwhelmed with gratitude in the meantime and ready for that plot twist right about now, for He is a God of "suddenly!" Nah, scratch that this is no plot twist! It's MY time! 🙌🏽

If anyone needs to cry, scream, vent, take a nap, make yourself a cup of tea, journal your thoughts, listen to your favorite 80s-90s playlist and dance, then please do. Take this time for you! As I always like to say, never allow anyone or anything to steal your joy or your peace. 🙏🏽

I hope everyone stays safe and has a wonderful holiday in spite of these times! 

Sending all my love,

Sharon ❤

Here are some gentle reminders that resonated with my heart. Enjoy!

Runaway If You Want To Survive

Does anyone ever get that feeling, that inner knowing that something's coming? Like a huge change or shift is about to occur? You can't quite explain why, but deep down you just know? It's not even anything negative, but you just sense that something is about to happen. You may not know when or exactly how, but your instincts and dreams have picked up on the signs...

Fast forward to a week later... When I tell you that God sees and hears ALL things, believe it! If anyone would have told me that four years later, I would receive extra confirmation about a decision that I made, I might've looked at them like they're foolish. Honestly, it's not even about what I was informed of, but more of HOW it arrived on my lap. The Lord surely sends kind messengers from every corner. The truth will ALWAYS reveal itself! I don't wish ill-will on anyone, but you do not go about mistreating people and end up living a happy and peaceful life. As much I may feel bad as a human being with a heart, I'm also incredibly grateful to know that it could've easily been me! God saved me! He delivered me! He blocked itttttt! I didn't have all the answers those many years ago, but I appreciate the clarity now. And to think that I could've been alone, barefoot, pregnant (with Lord knows how many...) and near no family or friends in the middle of nowhere... Wooooo thank You Father! 🙌🏽

I pray that no woman ever has to deal with a selfish, insensitive, entitled, grown toddler/man-child for a husband/partner. But, I get that life happens and I've always said that if necessary, I would rather come home alive from a broken marriage than in a coffin. Periodt. Life is wayyyy too short to be dealing with such chaos. Of course, it may be easy for us on the outside looking in, but for those of us that have experienced abusive relationships and lived to tell the tale, my goodness... As 90's group "The Real McCoy" once sang: "Runaway, runaway, runaway and save your life! Runaway, run-away, runaway if you want to survive! It's time to break free!" Take care of you, Sis/Bro/Ya'll! 

I don't always discuss my experiences with narcissistic-sociopath abuse, but I'm here to be a voice and hopefully a beacon of hope for anyone that needs it. I'm far from perfect, but I know my worth and it took me a long time to get my glow back and I refuse to allow anyone to dim my sparkle. So, please take time to heal and release any wounds or toxic coping behaviors and generational wounds (that’s a topic for another day! 👀) Remember that no one can ever steal your joy, your peace or your loving heart. I'm a big believer in "whatever will be, will be" and that “what’s for you, will always be FOR YOU!” We just need to be open to receiving and to make room for the next chapter. I'm still learning, but I know that as cliché as it sounds, the best IS yet to come! My journey is far from over and I look forward to discovering what else is in store. ✍🏽

I hope everyone enjoys the remainder of the week! 

Nitey nite! 🌙

All my love,

Sharon 🖤

"Social Distancing" An Introvert's Bliss (or Hell)

Hey everyone!

I hope everyone is taking care of themselves and spending time with their loved ones (if possible) during this crazy time. I'm sure extroverts are kinda losing their minds out there, but as a self-proclaimed introvert, try to pause, slow down and look on the bright side of things. 👀

Think of all the things you can accomplish with this time of seclusion... When was the last time you took time for yourself? Have you tried a new recipe? Why not bake that dessert that you've been dying to try out thanks to endless baking tutorials on Youtube? 🍰 Grab that book that's been sitting on your desk for months. 📚 If you're feeling anxious or worried about x-y-and-z (hello, it's me!) perhaps text, call or Facetime someone important to you and vent or maybe grab one of your many journals and write to your heart's content! And if you must cry, let those tears fall and decorate your pages. 📝 Try to find a healthy outlet to release anything that's beyond your control or to simply just breathe. I'm sure that we could all use a rejuvenating nap. Sometimes, the best way to recharge is to not do, but be still. 😌

I'll admit that I'm scared at times... Scared of unexpected changes, scared that I may not say or do the right things, scared to open up my heart and be vulnerable, scared that I won't have enough time, scared that my hopes and dreams feel so far-fetched or nearly impossible and scared that maybe I'm just so focused on the future, that I end up running from my present self... 😔

I read something earlier today and noticed that it fit exactly not only how I’ve been feeling, but how my thought process has shifted as I’ve grown older: “Breaking out of old thought patterns and finding refreshing ways to express yourself are also things to aspire to... Of course, that means risking being wrong or saying something that not everyone will agree with. GIVE YOURSELF PERMISSION TO TAKE THAT RISK, even if it means making a strong impression that you’re worried will come across as too bold. Have courage to speak your mind and see things in a new light. GROWTH REQUIRES CHANGE.” Can I say that I felt attacked yet heard? 👀

Trust me, despite my calm demeanor, I'm a clam of worry. I worry about others, their tone of voice, their change in behavior, reading too deep into shit and ya girl manages to find a way to worry before there are even things TO worry about, so how do ya'll think I'm doing now?! I'm an acrobat at jumping to conclusions. 😧😩

But, all is well... I woke up this morning. I'm ingesting way too much tea and carbohydrates. I've managed to wash my hair with one hand (burned my left hand earlier this week, so please be careful in the kitchen guys!) and type up a fresh post. Baby steps... 🙌

Who knew that turning 28 would not only change how my mind and body operates, but also how much I've been self-reflecting?! Ya girl is tired. She's emotionally drained... 🍵

Anywho, feel free to leave me comments on your thoughts and how you guys are handling things during this hectic situation. Take care my darlings! Stay hydrated, get some well-deserved rest and take your Vitamin C!


With Love,
Sharon 🌙

Cheers to New Beginnings

Guys, it just hit me that the year is basically over... 👀

A few weeks ago, I even admitted to one of my girls that I cannot believe that it's "Christmas-time" and that it feels as if Summer just came and went... 👋 Anywhooo, so much has happened and I'm sure there's more to come in this new year of 2020. (It's kinda crazy to think about...) I'm actually really excited for a new decade, it almost feels like being given the opportunity to write and witness a new chapter. ✍

I recently got back into the habit of writing more and noticed that it's done a tremendous job at alleviating whatever has been weighing on my heart. I may not cry very often (I always joke about needing to schedule one in...) but, being able to find healthy ways to calm my mind and help me decompress works just as well. Art or other forms of creativity has always been my biggest vice, especially since childhood. You could find me in the corner drawing with jumbo crayons, shamelessly singing Celine Dion or the Spice Girls, dressing up in costumes/outdated clothes from yesteryear or daydreaming of being a Disney princess. 👸

I've realized that life really does have a way of surprising you and you can either accept that or change course. I may not always enjoy change, but I've learned that I'm able to adapt to what's occurring around me and thus, shifting my perspective to see the good and find the lesson. I'm far more capable than I realize which means that I'm stronger and resilient than I appear. I'm the type of person that will view a detour as a blessing in disguise. I'm a big believer in timing and all that's meant to be, will be. And no, I'm not saying to deny your emotions or avoid them. I'm all for embracing your emotions and taking time for yourself to relax, heal and refocus.  #selfcare 🍵

I want to open myself up to the possibilities! No more hiding behind my work, my hidden talents or that feeling of lack, unworthy of good things, as well as, hiding and shielding myself from "real love" out of fear of: failure, the unknown or another heartbreak. My heart has been through far more than I could have possibly imagined and it's insane to think that it can endure so much more... I always remind myself that I am not what has happened to me and that I, too, deserve a chance at happiness. I don't know what the future holds, but I do know that my time isn't up yet, so I'm ready for what magic is in store. ✨

May you all have an abundant and magical holiday! I pray that your new year will be prosperous and rewarding for your well-being.


With love,
Sharon 💕

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