Guys, it just hit me that the year is basically over... 👀
A few weeks ago, I even admitted to one of my girls that I cannot believe that it's "Christmas-time" and that it feels as if Summer just came and went... 👋 Anywhooo, so much has happened and I'm sure there's more to come in this new year of 2020. (It's kinda crazy to think about...) I'm actually really excited for a new decade, it almost feels like being given the opportunity to write and witness a new chapter. ✍
I recently got back into the habit of writing more and noticed that it's done a tremendous job at alleviating whatever has been weighing on my heart. I may not cry very often (I always joke about needing to schedule one in...) but, being able to find healthy ways to calm my mind and help me decompress works just as well. Art or other forms of creativity has always been my biggest vice, especially since childhood. You could find me in the corner drawing with jumbo crayons, shamelessly singing Celine Dion or the Spice Girls, dressing up in costumes/outdated clothes from yesteryear or daydreaming of being a Disney princess. 👸
I've realized that life really does have a way of surprising you and you can either accept that or change course. I may not always enjoy change, but I've learned that I'm able to adapt to what's occurring around me and thus, shifting my perspective to see the good and find the lesson. I'm far more capable than I realize which means that I'm stronger and resilient than I appear. I'm the type of person that will view a detour as a blessing in disguise. I'm a big believer in timing and all that's meant to be, will be. And no, I'm not saying to deny your emotions or avoid them. I'm all for embracing your emotions and taking time for yourself to relax, heal and refocus. #selfcare 🍵
I want to open myself up to the possibilities! No more hiding behind my work, my hidden talents or that feeling of lack, unworthy of good things, as well as, hiding and shielding myself from "real love" out of fear of: failure, the unknown or another heartbreak. My heart has been through far more than I could have possibly imagined and it's insane to think that it can endure so much more... I always remind myself that I am not what has happened to me and that I, too, deserve a chance at happiness. I don't know what the future holds, but I do know that my time isn't up yet, so I'm ready for what magic is in store. ✨
May you all have an abundant and magical holiday! I pray that your new year will be prosperous and rewarding for your well-being.
With love,
Sharon 💕
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Hello, it's me. 💖
"How does a moment last forever? How does a story never die? It is love we must hold onto, never easy but we try..." 🌹
Ugh, that song never fails to tug at my heartstrings, especially the beautiful rendition Celine Dion did a couple years ago. I must warn you though, perhaps don't listen to it while on public transportation or else you could end up randomly bursting into tears. 😅
Hello my darlings! 🌸🌸🌸🌸
It's officially Spring and yet this NYC weather is still trifling... You never know whether to wear a hoodie, a denim jacket AND a scarf or a bubble coat and run the risk of dying from heatstroke by the afternoon. Anywho, I hope everyone's quarter has been peaceful, positive and productive so far and if not, I pray that things will settle down soon. 🙏
I wanted to express what's been on my heart and mind these last few days... Do any of you believe in "soulmates" or "twin flames"? What about "perfect timing" or the concept of "meant to be"? I'd like to believe that there is someone for everyone, but I do think that it really depends on not only who you choose to build with, where or when in your life you decide, but why? I'm a big believer in timing, yet also in the ability to change your fate. 🌟
Have you ever met someone and it just felt right? As if something just hits you out of the blue, whether through conversation, a look or a touch and it just "clicks." I don't really believe in "love at first sight" but I do believe in that "click." Everything just flows so effortlessly. Your mind is spinning and you don't even realize that you've been holding your breath... Their voice, their scent, their demeanor, their vibes are just illuminating. You're creating a moment from a spark. A memory. ✨
"Go on, go on leave me breathless..." When you dream of it and it somehow manifests into reality... It's like that saying of how you've always pictured it, but are never quite prepared for it... 😌
It's almost magical in a way, is it not? ✨🌟🌠🌙
I don't know about you, but I think we all deserve some magic in our lives... 🌠
With Love,
Sharon 🌙
Hey everyone!
I thought that I would go on here and discuss a bit about shadiness, lack of transparency and how problematic lurking can be... 👀😏 I mean, how many of us can raise their hand and admit that they've done SUCH a good job at snooping that they came across way too much information after going down the rabbit hole? 🙋 Like should we be hired as private investigators? Probably, but I digress.
Anywho, let me indicate a small disclaimer that I will not reveal any names in these incidents, but feel free to fill-in the blanks or even share similar situations/experiences in the comments below. I'd love to sip tea along with you all! 🐸🍵
I'm sure that most of us are aware of this whole "side-hoe/chick/dude" epidemic and for those that willingly participate, God-speed to you... But, for the rest of us that want something real and have ever felt like we may have met the right person, so all seemed peachy, but suddenly you can't sleep, then begin to over analyze past conversations or situations and start to connect the dots at 2am, one can't help but want to scream or possibly commit a homicide (but, that would be far too extreme.) 😇
Oh and for the ones you meet that give you the classic line of: "I'm not ready for a serious relationship right now..." But, neglect to include: "Oh, but you can't see other people though and I hope that you remain loyal to me while I go sow my royal oats with other females that fit my type/fetishes/needs" or "I'll offer you the bare-minimum just to maintain access to you in case I need you back in my life (once I get my shit together), but I don't want anything serious with you right now, but you have no right to get upset because we're not even together, but I'm allowed to get possessive and jealous if another guy even looks at you or tries to communicate with you." If that's not a serious case of male brain-damage, then I don't know what is... 😒
And what really bugs me is that some guys may even dote on you hand and foot, proclaim all of these false promises and plans for the future, when in reality they don't even know what they're doing tomorrow, let alone next week... Sometimes it's not even them being inconsistent, it's the overbearing-types you also need to watch out for because they can really mess with your discernment. It's as if you can't even rely on your intuition anymore... 😩
I swear you think that the older you get, the better and mature guys become, but some of these dudes just make you want to go: Dang, what is up with the world today? Why are more and more people so manipulative and selfish? And why are some guys so afraid to feel something real? It's as if when it happens, they end up freakin' out and sabotaging a good thing over their indecisiveness. I'm not saying that all guys react that way, since I actually have had ONE case scenario where the guy was kind and upfront about what he wanted to do, how he felt and I truly respected him for it. We're still friends to this day and he's happily married now. He even offered sound advice as to how he knew she was his person, as well as, why it may take some guys longer to settle down and how some guys are just complete idiots when they meet the right girl. 😂
I guess my point is, can the people that want to fiddle every nook and cranny find another person that wants their cranny fiddled AND can the rest of us that would like to build a life with someone, find their person accordingly? I don't think that's too complicated is it? It's not a competition, it's just become exhausting having to start over when the timing is off. Side note: do you believe in meeting the right person, but at the wrong time? Like does time ever work out where both are in a good place and you can decide: "Great! Let's do this!" or is that just in the movies or for those that are prone to luck in love? It makes me think of those scenarios where high school sweethearts drift a part, they marry other people, both become widows/widowers and they reunite later in life. 💞
It's tough for me to say really, but I have experienced two cases where I thought the timing may work out better in adulthood. Unfortunately, it doesn't always mean "meant to be" it may just be more of a, "nah, this is why it wouldn't work out..." They say "timing is everything" but what most fail to realize is that time is not guaranteed! People change, circumstances can shift and you're not in control of what another person will do if another opportunity presented itself that may be a better fit. I'm at a point in my life where I need to make a decision on whether to stay and let things be or walk away. I'm in no rush, but I'm also not getting any younger and it's not fair to my heart and mind to wait around for a "possibility." I may be patient, but I'm no fool. 😤
Pardon the intense venting session, but I needed to release what's been weighing on my heart for the past 2-3 years and I'm thankfully in no way pointing the blame at anyone, I just hope and pray that more people may be more vocal about what they truly want and to never allow anyone to manipulate them, string them along or take them for granted. 🙌
Feel free to leave a comment below if any of these thoughts resonated with you and perhaps any suggestions for future posts.
I appreciate the support and kind ears. Enjoy the rest of the week! 💋
With Love,
Sharon 💖
